The last few weeks I’ve curled inward, licking my wounds.
(I betcha you couldn’t tell…)
Brian and I have obviously been having our problems. But the truth of the matter is, you can’t traverse this road without getting a little out of breath. I was prepared for there to be problems. I was prepared for it to be a difficult climb. But I also knew at the end of the day that the view from the top would be worth it. l
I’m only half way up the hill and so far the view has been astounding.
Sometimes I fall. Sometimes I skin my knees. Sometimes I let myself stay down for far too long. It’s time to keep moving.
Brian and I will be fine, whatever the outcome. We’re attempting to move forward as a unit. This unit may not stay in tact when all is said and done, but it will always remain a family. And if I have learned anything in the last few months it is that the definition of family is fluid. It is always growing and changing and evolving. It can be the stereotypical family: man, wife and kids. It can be a single mom filling the role of two (and making the rest of us look bad). It can be two mothers and their son. It can be a set of parents that have split, but still love their children and would work together and apart to move Heaven and Earth for them.
Family isn’t in the marriage agreements. It’s in the love that ties them together.
In that news… I have a date on Saturday with Nicole. She’s taking me to a local club. I’ve never been and find myself a little anxious about it.
Ironically… it was Brian that convinced me to accept the invitation.
I know he hasn’t given up on us, and that is not why he encourages me to go. It’s that good or bad, he cares about me and my wellbeing and will put that first.
(Well now I just feel selfish!)
So come Monday morning I will have a shiny new post for you all about my date on Saturday.
(Wish me luck!!)
… And in other news…
KITTENS!!!
I’ve had these adorable little ankle biters running around my desk for the past 6 weeks. And although I am sad to say it, it’s time to adobt them out into other loving, kitten-friendly homes.
(As I type this one has actually curled up on my lap… too cute!)
Happy Weekend Ladies and Gentlemen.
I hope this finds you well. And if it does not find you well… don’t give up. We all go through it. Lick your wounds while you have to. But pick back up and keep fighting.
….You’ll make a kitten cry if you don’t…
O.M.G. I wish that I could adopt them all. We love cats, but are already “owned by two. I’ll bet that their mama is proud, too. Good luck on your date, my dear!
I meant “owned.” I got carried away by kitty cuteness;).
Ricki – Ok, this feels like deja vu. I swear I had already replied to you, but suddenly wordpress says it isn’t there. *is weirded out by the disappearing comments*
ANYWAY… what I had originally said was,…
I am owned by two ragdoll beauties as well. (The kittens parents). And two cats are more than enough for this girl to handle. (Some days I wish I could potty train my cats. THAT would be a win!)
Although with how cute these kittens are they are definitely going to be hard to give up. That and one of the females has taken a particular liking to me and keeps sucking up and cuddling up with me. oooo! They know my weakness! That I’m WEAK!
I’ll take the one on the wood!!
Ps: yay hot date this weekend! Best of luck to ya!
hehehe… yeah, he’s sooo adorable.
They all are. This batch is going to be hard to give up!
Thanks Erin!
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“you can’t traverse this road without getting a little out of breath” — excellent way to describe this!
I’ve felt out of breath many, many times on my journey of the past 4 years. I wish I could find a dang inhaler that would suddenly allow me to breathe well again, but I haven’t. There will be times when you are just so exhausted that you want to give up, to take your last breath. Then there are times when you catch that second wind! Lol
Hope you have a great time this weekend!
Thanks BiGirl,
I have definitely felt out of breath many times too. Sometimes it feels as if I’m labouring against impossible odds and other times, you’re right, it’s as if you catch your second wind.
I think that might be where I’m at today. I stopped and stared at the view for a little while and now I’m ready to keep moving. It won’t be easy, but I think it will be worth it.
Hope all is well with you too.
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Brian sounds like an incredibly lovely man, and I have no doubt as to why you fell for him in the first place. Whatever happens, know that he too will find his way to happiness.
Thanks WWG.
I think I needed to hear that.
Sometimes on this road, you’re terrified that in going after what YOU want for yourself, you hurt and destroy life for those around you.